Published posthumously in 1963, this diary, in combination with despair and elegance, reveals the tragically divided personality of its author, oscillating between a narcissistic and cynical carnality and a dark craving for absolute. Pierre Drieu La Rochelle (Paris, 1893) had a difficult childhood due to the disunion of his parents, which marked his future relationship with women and marriage, although it did not prevent him from having multiple affairs and marrying (and divorcing) twice . Drieu fought in World War I, wrote poems and stories that were well received and related to the surrealists. He published numerous works of fiction (Le feu follet, 1931, Gilles, 1939, Les mémoires de Dirk Raspe, posthumous), essays and articles with autobiographical resonances in which analyzes the political, sexual and moral uprooting of his generation, traumatized by the war . Increasingly concerned about European politics, he adopts a fascist ideology. When the Nazi invasion of France takes place, it accepts the address of the Nouvelle Revue Française, which will force him to be hidden at the end of the war by fear of the reprisals. He committed suicide on March 15, 1945.